Shake your tambourine
"You blow my head open. Of one thing I'm sure...
I do my best for you I do"
Monday, March 14, 2005

The Hunt, is over
I liked the apartment. I really liked it. It was new... nobody had lived in it since they had redone it. In fact, they were still waiting on the fridge! Yes, it was that new. But the layout was really weird. The size of the rooms was just odd... illogical almost. And as disappointed as I am about it, I just can't do it. I'm really bummed, 'cause I enjoyed the possibility of moving out... of moving into a new place... of having a project... a new apartment to decorate. I don't know, it kept my mind occupied.

And I'm a little more bummed than I thought I was gonna be about the whole thing. I've been so focused on it, knowing that it wasn't for sure... but deep down, I really wanted for it to work. But it's not going to work, this time.

I've always been a "glass is half-full" kind of girl, and I'm doing my best to focus on the amount of money that I'm actually going to save by NOT moving. And about how much LOWER my stress level will be if I don't move. And about how much more enjoyable Matt's time at home will be if we DON'T have to spent the whole time moving. And about how cats are sometimes traumatized when they experience major changes.

So I called my mom, and we talked about it. And she understands my frustrations, and why I'm sad about it. We got off of the phone and I was still bummed. I couldn't help it. And then I remembered that Alyssa called me the other night and I never returned the call. So we talked for about an hour... and it was awesome. I'm so glad that we did, 'cause this was one of those situations where I really needed her... and I love her for that.

I'm tired... and need to go to bed. So those of you who were saddened by the thought of me leaving my apartment, never fear. I'll still be living here, for at least another year.


I swear so God I didn't mean to make that rhyme.


I just... I just feel like I need something to help make me whole again.

Frequenting...

An Angel Flying
Night-time-musings
shan:non:par:eil
something food related
Amalah
Snarkywood
Opinionista


Feelin' Creative...

ljc fyi
pink is the new blog
not martha


Reading...

New Moon
Stephanie Meyer

Will revisit:
The Money Book for the Young, Fabulous, & Broke
by Suze Orman
Invisible Man
by Ralph Ellison
Catch 22
by Joseph Heller


Finished...

Twilight
by Stephanie Meyer
Best 'Tween Book EVER!
Little Earthquakes
by Jennifer Weiner
Loved it!
Harry Potter 6
by J.K. Rowling
Can't wait for Book 7!
Diary of a Mad Bride
by Laura Wolf
This one made me feel normal
Middlesex
by Jeffrey Eugenides
AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!
Motorcycle Diaries
by Ernesto Che Guevara
Just OK... not amazing
Fan Man
by William Kotzwinkle
TOO FUNNY, man!
The Life of Pi
by Yann Martel
SO GOOD!


Contemplating...

A Prayer for Owen Meany
by John Irving
The Photograph
by Penelope Lively


Listening...

Eric Hutchinson
DMB
Wilco
American Hi-Fi
phish
Carbon Leaf
Damien Rice
Guster
The Shins
Sarah Mclachlan

Where's Dashboard Confessional?


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