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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
I'm walking to the subway this morning and I see a little boy waiting for his ride to come. He's holding a shoebox... a diorama. It was so cute, and made me think of the diorama that I made for a book report on Charlotte's Web when I was in elementary school. ;) I made a little pink pig out of playdough and a little spider spinning a web out of thread. So cute. I think I got a 100%. I was so proud. Dinner last night with Erin was awesome! Spending time with her is such a great recharge. ;) It makes me sad that we don't get together that much, but hopefully when work calms down, that will change. I did finally have my meeting with the head of our group. I basically learned that with our group's reorganization, I'm going to be placed (again) with the crazy-lady*... but I'm going to have my own population to manage. That's good, I guess... I'm doing my best not to count things out before I even try them. I didn't get a very good vibe from her, though. Was she trying to manage my expectations that my salary increase and bonus are going to suck? Maybe... I don't know. I'm not optimistic, though... and that's going to be a MAJOR derailer. I can tell you that much. I really can't spend too much time thinking about it, even though I can't get it out of my head. My eyes welled up with tears on the train this morning, and I could barely focus on my game of Bejeweled. (I'm sorry... even I'm laughing at that comment)... But seriously, I've got to figure out a way to cope... I've got to. The hard part is coming to grips with the idea that I might not fit in here. That this job might not be the right one for me. And that I might not be suited for this environment. That sucks... 'cause I don't like to think of myself as a failure. (I could tell, though, that the head of our group doesn't think that I'm doing a good job... she doesn't hide her feelings very well). Miserable... just miserable. * My crazy co-worker is nuts... but she is a very nice woman. When we talk about non-work-related things, she's totally cool. She's just a little difficult to work with. When I get her focused... we're totally cool and I learn a lot. It's just one of the most difficult work-environments that I've ever had.
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ljc fyi pink is the new blog not martha
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New Moon Stephanie Meyer Will revisit:
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Twilight by Stephanie Meyer Best 'Tween Book EVER! Little Earthquakes by Jennifer Weiner Loved it! Harry Potter 6 by J.K. Rowling Can't wait for Book 7! Diary of a Mad Bride by Laura Wolf This one made me feel normal Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! Motorcycle Diaries by Ernesto Che Guevara Just OK... not amazing Fan Man by William Kotzwinkle TOO FUNNY, man! The Life of Pi by Yann Martel SO GOOD!
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A Prayer for Owen Meany by John Irving The Photograph by Penelope Lively
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Eric Hutchinson DMB Wilco American Hi-Fi phish Carbon Leaf Damien Rice Guster The Shins Sarah Mclachlan Where's Dashboard Confessional?
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